Heartbreak Warfare

Thursday, January 19, 2012 § 0

I made a meal tonight. I have gradually learnt to like cooking ever since someone commented that I seem like the sort who gets served all the time. Or ever since someone I love doubted I can cook. Cooking has slowly become a therapy for me, that's because I get to concentrate on making the dish at its best. In my own style of course.

And I've decided to lay off extremely emotional trance/house/minimal techno music for the time being. It makes me really depressed as much as I love that sort of music. For a change, I put on a favourite hillsong of mine. Strange I know, that I even listen to such things, I only have one hillsong that I listen to ever since my secondary school friends introduced it to me. Yeah you can imagine, that was like ages ago.

After listening to calmer songs (I supposed that's how you describe it), I feel so much better and at ease. I've decided, perhaps I should start being a little more religious to make believe in things. I've been speaking to so many people recently and before I left on a plane a few days ago, I realized that there are so many people in my life who cared a lot about me, and also love me. I guess I'm really blessed, I haven't seem to believe that fact in the past.

Now, I'll leave you with two tracks that made me feel so much better as I type this entry alone in a room, far away from home. In a way, I can't wait to head home and start anew on everything.





With love,
yours truly

Horoscope read for the day

Wednesday, January 11, 2012 § 0

"You have recently celebrated your birthday or you will soon, Capricorn. And with your birthday comes the chance for you to examine your life, and whether you are fulfilling your destiny here on earth. That's a pretty heavy concept, but it is something you need to do. You may have felt lately as though you're floundering around without as much purpose as you should have, and that could be because you have unresolved thoughts about your future, and where you should be heading. As a birthday gift to yourself, spend some time contemplating what you really want in life, and how to get it. Because this year, you've got a good chance of getting it."

This is just so scarily, 100%, true.

Wishlist

Friday, January 6, 2012 § 3

An excuse for the occasion. I have thus placed a wishlist for things (mostly gadgets) I hope to have at this moment. I won't deny that I'm pretty much a gadget girl. ^o^v




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Dream on, or till I've saved up enough.

Birthday Month

Wednesday, December 28, 2011 § 0


yours truly, approx. 3 years ago


I've been contemplating for the longest time if I should hold a party for my birthday next year. Ever since that huge (failure) bash when I was 20, I decided never ever to hold a large party again. Well, back then, the people I invited were of a different "class". This might sound condescending towards some, or make me sound like I have extremely high expectations of people, but the truth was I did not have good guests at that point of time. By that I mean, behavioral wise.

And so I stopped birthday parties after that incident happened but each year, I felt envious of friends who are able to host good parties for everyone's get together. The thing is, planning a party and all is such a tough job. You'll have so much to worry about and stress over, the food, the number of people attending, the location, the setup and the list goes on.

If I were to gather some friends for a night out with some drinks at the club, I wouldn't want to risk going home in puke and not remembering a single thing the night before or worse, having to take care of drunken friends. I honestly think that people ought to be responsible for themselves. We should all know our liquor limits. Don't drink just to get into the high and be irresponsible for your own actions, expecting others to take care of you.

Le sigh. I shouldn't waste away my youth right and totally have a smashing party. All I need to do is make some extra effort to plan a really awesome one and have a good time with all the important people in my life.

Everyone who is invited eventually will have to do an Ellie Goulding "Starry Eyed" dance together, no exceptions.

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